Here I am, drinking my perfectly sweetened coffee, behind my laptop screen at the office. Slowly recovering from a perfectly good weekend, full of sleeping, TV shows and pure nothingness. I wish all my weekends were like this one.
Sadly, this is one of those rare weekends… a well-deserved and desperately needed one, but very rare. You see for the last few weeks I have been doing nothing but work, work and some more work. This all sounds in a way good, but I am unfortunately only human and this is starting to have some serious effect on my mental and physical state. I am seriously EXHAUSTED all the time and those around me are starting to notice.
I work almost 16 hours a day and have no time for anything else. In the weekend I usually sleep like someone who is recovering from a major surgery, because my energy level is at 0%. Last week I felt brain dead, because I had once again slept between 2-4 hours per day during the entire week and I seriously have a distorted view of time right now.
A few days I had a Skype video call at 4.30am with a client. He was in his convertible deluxe sport car and I was at home in my underwear still working and not having slept yet.
All this made me wonder. Is it all worth it? Why am I slaving myself away, while my paycheck is not growing? Do I still want to be doing this in 5 years and not have made progress in my personal life?
OMG… I am a victim of modern day slavery and I am slowly building the stepping stones for others on their way to success, without even benefiting from it? I think the time is nearing for me to break the chains.
But not now… now I need to go back to my emails… I have work to do.
*sips his coffee*