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Drunk in love

By Clayton

The other day a newly-made friend asked me why I am still single.
Each time I get this question – which is all freaking the time – I answer by saying:
“If I knew the answer to that question I probably wouldn’t be single”.

However I suddenly had an epiphany today. Apparently I am only liked when there is vodka, rum or weed involved. Yes, that’s when I am “romantically” attractive to others.

Yes, I admit, I like my glass of wine before a date (feel to interpret that word as broadly as you want), but for me it’s more a courage thing. But yup, I think that is the answer.

Where did this sudden epiphany come from? There I was sitting at a social event across someone I have seen naked on two occasions… I was wondering: why are there no sparks flying this time? Well, probably because we were both completely sober.

Another example is the case of my two-year-secret-not-so-secret crush. Open the bottle of vodka, pour us a few glasses, get the music just right and we will be making out on the dance floor before the break of dawn.

The other day I was looking at our pics and I was asking myself: why the hell are we not dating?
It’s probably way more complicated than that, but maybe because we both can’t be perpetually drunk, which is why this will never happen.

So…. Yeah…. I am mostly drunk in love, but I don’t see any sober love happening any time soon.
#CallMeWhenYouReSober

DISCLAIMER: I don’t smoke weed, nor have I ever… but certain people around me do.

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29th Birthday Eve

By Clayton

It’s the eve of my 29th birthday and I am here sitting alone in my room, drinking a glass of Smirnoff Ice, listening to Lana Del Rey’s album Born to Die and writing this blog obviously. There is a scented candle burning in front of me… there is no real reason for that. It just smells good and I like that. There also is no purpose for this blog post yet. I decided to just write and let the words write themselves.

I just finished wrapping 2 gifts. No not for myself. I’m not THAT lonely.
But wait… it’s almost your birthday… shouldn’t YOU be getting gift is probably what you are thinking.
Yes, you are correct, but I just like to spoil others, so I have decided to give gifts to 2 people. Both spontaneous, both for various reasons.

Carmen just started playing… I love this song.

Oops, sorry, got distracted. Still have no idea what this blog is about.

I do not feel like reflecting on my life right now. Feels a bit like a waste.
Not my life… the reflecting at the moment. I think I am about to finish this glass and go watch some YouTube videos until I fall asleep.

Good night world!

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Happy New Year 2017

By Clayton

2016 has ended and it’s time for my annual summary of the past year.
I guess we can all more or less agree upon the fact that 2016 kinda sucked A LOT, but we are all hoping for a much better 2017.

I don’t know about you, but 2017 is already treating me well. For starters I am working hard on completing my thesis. I want to graduate in February so there is no more time for procrastination and other bullshit. Let’s get this ball rolling and race towards the end.

The other day I had also won the lottery 😀 yay. It was SRD 12, which equals 1.5 USD/EUROS, but I never win anything and I usually do not take part in lotteries. I believe in making your own luck in life.
I bought this one while I was in the tank station shop two weeks ago and forgot about it until I was in there again. It may be just be a small amount, but it’s just the idea that luck may be on my side and I hope it stays with me for the rest of the year.

But back to 2016. As already mentioned it kinda sucked.

I did have a highlight, which was the Eurotrip I went on. Visited 11 countries within 4 weeks with my friends. I still need to write blog posts about that. I will do so over the course of next month when it will be one year later.

The lowlight of 2016 was that I lost my best friend. No, none died! Things just fell apart and all efforts of me to salvage that friendship were avail. There is no real reason for it, I guess maybe the 18 plus years of friendship suddenly wasn’t meaningful anymore. That or we have just grown up. I don’t know, but I admit that this has depressed me a lot. Maybe I haven’t shown it or said anything, but on the inside it did. And it still does. But I have somehow accepted this and keep myself occupied with my work.

In 2016 I have also worked my ass off way more than I ever have before. I admit the money came rolling in, but that also meant little to no sleeping. So it’s a 50-50 thing. I still have 2 freelance jobs to finish from last year. I want to do that, but after that take a break from freelancing. I am exhausting and need to find a way to balance it all out with my regular day job (which is also very hectic) and also find a way to sleep more. I am getting older and it all goes downhill from here.

The love department as usual is lacking. In 2016 there was someone that finally made me feel the sensation of “butterflies in the stomach” again. I haven’t had this feeling since 2013, since… you know.
I guess it has been a one year small crush that kinda blossomed into a bigger one in rapid pace, but having said that, this also went nowhere nor will it. I am stuck in the friendzone and I have decided to step back. It’s not gonna happen. Best is to retreat fast.

So the beginning of 2016 was great (the Eurotrip) after that very crappy months and finally a great ending again when Farid and Patrick whom were both in Suriname on vacation. That was a nice few days, with little sleep, but new memories. Also some broken or fading friendships were mended.

So for 2017 I have decided, no more BS, get that diploma and just steer of to a better future.

Workaholic

3 years at Alembo

By Clayton

Today is exactly 3 years ago that I first signed in here… and it was NOT a joke!! 😀

alembo-signin

Time has gone by fast. 3 years ago I had 3 times less grey hairs on my head and I weight 5 kg lighter. Oh Alembo, what have you done to me? Haha

In my 3 years I sat in 2 different rooms in the building, have had 2 different functions, seems colleagues come and go, have worked with various clients, have gained a lot of new experiences, have been annoyed multiple times, have been satisfied, have one time seriously considered quitting, have loved and hated my job both at the same time, became a work-a-holic. But I think all of the above is part of every job.

I did decide to throw a minor celebration; by buying cake for the people I have known the longest here. And that only because I am not sure if a 4th anniversary will follow, but who knows. Anything can happen, right?

Maybe I should reward myself on this work anniversary with a nice 2 week vacation. 🙂 Well I did already have 5 vacations since I’ve been working here, but who’s counting anyways…. lol

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