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Happy Busy 2015

By Clayton

Happy New Year everyone!
Is it even still appropriate to say Happy New Year? I finally found some free time to write anything down here. The only reason why I even found time now is because I am currently without WIFI, so by the time you read this it means that I have found a WIFI connection.

2014 is over and I barely have any memories of it. My best friend and I were driving a few weeks ago, trying to gather memories of 2014, but there was not enough for us to count on one hand. 2014 is just one major blur. I am not even going to do my usual big recap of the year. It was okay, I guess. So much happened, but yet I barely remember a thing.

The important thing is that 2015 is here, which immediately fell with the door in house. You will only get that last sentence if you speak Dutch. Lol. It’s a literally translated Dutch saying, which sounds so wrong in English.

Since I started working again after my last vacation in Holland it was doing preparation for this major project that would start on January 11, 2015. The first project that I have actively been involved in since starting the new job as a software consultant went live on that date. So I have had it very busy. January 11 was on a Sunday, so I also had to work on Saturday and Sunday; which resulted in me working about 12 days in a row. Last weekend, I finally had some days off. As you can imagine I was dead tired by then. This week also kicked of pretty hectic, with things going all over the place again and having to manage it all.

But yeah, guess that’s my life now.
I am also putting on some force on the people that I need in order to graduate this year. It seems that my mails are starting to get ignored again and I am not willing to spend any more time that needed at that college.

But back to the topic of this blog post: Happy New Year 🙂

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My new job

By Clayton

On September 1st of this year, I started with a new job.

Yes, that was exactly one week after I stopped working at my old job.

No, I didn’t tell anyone and kept it a secret, simply because for once I didn’t feel like sharing every detail of my life…. What what??

Yes, I know what you were thinking just a second ago. lol
No, I just didn’t feel like announcing it to the world until I was absolutely sure how I felt about the new job, the new tasks and responsibilities. But now, about 2.5 months later, I am ready to reveal to you all that I am now working at:

Baboem N.V. | www.baboem.sr
As a Software consultant.

This is a total different thing than what I used to do for 3.5 years at Alembo, but I am super motivated and excited. I still work as a web developer, but I only do this on a freelance basis.

Look at the below picture, meet 2 of my new colleagues.
I think you may recognize their faces 🙂

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Yes, I am now working at the same company as 2 of my best friends, Ryan and Farid!
Of course at the office we are total different people than after 16.00. 😀

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In supremum die – The last day

By Clayton

After 3,5 years the time has finally come to say goodbye to my workplace.
Since it was my last day, I was not going to let it go by unnoticed. First off, I made sure I would stand out with my outfit, so I fumbled my closet and picked out a shirt I had never worn to the office before and put on my new blazer jacket. I once read that your last impression is just as important as your first. 🙂

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I was at the office very early, which is also quite unusual for me. It was a long day of rounding up some tasks and noting down instructions. But also I had my hands full with planning my own secret goodbye “party”.

I had order 40 custom made cupcakes, but that didn’t go as originally planned. In the morning I received a message from the owner of the cupcake shop that there was a problem. The original order I had, were chocolate cupcakes with a buttercream topping and the office logo on top of it. The logo was supposed to be edible. The problem was that the person who was supposed to print out the edible logo had to rush to the doctor in the morning, so the cupcake shop owner improvised by printing out the logo on paper and adding it as a decoration with a toothpick. I was happy with the improvising.

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I also sponsored my colleagues, with whom I sat with in the office room, with lunch I had bought at one of my favorite Chinese restaurants. I’m sure everyone enjoyed their meal.

As it was my last workday and also the last working day before the next payday I had to register all my working hours. I am usually always up to date with registration, but since the last month has been a bit a slow I didn’t do so until the last day. I however managed, but didn’t finish until after 18.00hr. Almost everyone had already left the office by that time. I logged off for the last time; I switched off all the electronics and silently closed the office. The story had ended.

Hic fabula finitur!

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I’ve resigned from my job!

By Clayton

Here’s something new in my life: about 2 months ago I handed in my resignation letter to my current employer. To those of you whom have been following my Facebook posts closely, this might not come as a shock. Also a few work-related blog posts may have subconsciously led to my decision to resign.

There has not been one specific reason to my resignation, nor will I write down any negative down here – so if you’re here for some juicy rumors, you might just click away now.

Okay, you’re still reading 🙂

All I will say is, that the past few months there have been drastic changes at the office; change is good, but in this case none of these changes were bringing me closer to my dream of relocating and purchasing a two bedroom apartment in Amsterdam or that one dream house in Rotterdam. Neither helping me become a renowned fictional writer and a successful blogger that gets to travel around.

Hey, don’t laugh! A boy is allowed to dream, right?!

Yes, you might think that I have clearly been working in the wrong place, but that’s not entirely true. My other (short term) dream was to manage a successful team of web developers or to be an awesome freelancer that has a lot of happy clients and earns enough to be able to fly from city to city. Oops, guess we ended back to the topic of traveling.

But you are getting the point that I am trying to make, right?

Things have not been the same and I had spiraled in a vicious cycle of hard work, sleeplessness and was slowly seeping into depression. I needed change… I needed to leave!

Funny enough, 2 weeks after handing in my resignation letter, I received my result of this professional personally test we did months ago, and the results of that test clearly point out that leaving now was one of the best decisions I could have taken.

I am quite a restless person, that’s full of dreams and ambitions. I have a lot I want to accomplish and I know exactly what I want, but lately I have not been coming closer to any of these dreams, but instead I’ve slipping further away from them.

After I had almost reached the point of a complete burn out and constantly feeling constrained, it was time for me to say thank you and goodbye. I am grateful for the 3,5 years I have been able to work hard and gain a lot of knowledge, but I’ve reached the end of the runway and it’s time to fly!

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Victim of modern day slavery

By Clayton

Here I am, drinking my perfectly sweetened coffee, behind my laptop screen at the office. Slowly recovering from a perfectly good weekend, full of sleeping, TV shows and pure nothingness. I wish all my weekends were like this one.

Sadly, this is one of those rare weekends… a well-deserved and desperately needed one, but very rare. You see for the last few weeks I have been doing nothing but work, work and some more work. This all sounds in a way good, but I am unfortunately only human and this is starting to have some serious effect on my mental and physical state. I am seriously EXHAUSTED all the time and those around me are starting to notice.

I work almost 16 hours a day and have no time for anything else. In the weekend I usually sleep like someone who is recovering from a major surgery, because my energy level is at 0%. Last week I felt brain dead, because I had once again slept between 2-4 hours per day during the entire week and I seriously have a distorted view of time right now.

A few days I had a Skype video call at 4.30am with a client. He was in his convertible deluxe sport car and I was at home in my underwear still working and not having slept yet.
All this made me wonder. Is it all worth it? Why am I slaving myself away, while my paycheck is not growing? Do I still want to be doing this in 5 years and not have made progress in my personal life?

OMG… I am a victim of modern day slavery and I am slowly building the stepping stones for others on their way to success, without even benefiting from it? I think the time is nearing for me to break the chains.

But not now… now I need to go back to my emails… I have work to do.
*sips his coffee*

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I’m a workaholic

By Clayton

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Hi, my name is Clayton and I’m a workaholic! o.O

Yes, my dear friends… I have stopped going out, school is (temporarily) on a low level,, but I have been working like CRAZY!! Yes, I have enough to do, but I think I have been going beyond my own borders the last few works. All I do is work, work, work!

I’m not complaining. It’s not like I have anything better to do… uh… let me rephrase that: I don’t really mind working hard, because I actually feel like I am doing something with my life.

But I am sort of trying to manage myself these last few weeks. Especially since after 2 weeks ago I almost cracked under the pressure and my doctor advised me to take a break or else… I would break. Thing is that so much has also changed at the office; new management, I have a new office space, I have a new position, my old team is nonexistence; all is just completely… different. Being the control freak that I am, and since I am not able to do anything about all these changes, besides adapt myself to them, I was starting to freak out. Yup, in my head I sort of lost it an needed to regain myself. Need to step on the breaks before I burned myself out.

As usual everything was all in my head. I had some thing at work I was not happy with, but it all has been sorted out. 2 weeks later it all already feels normal and I am totally used to the new working situation.

I am however I am still a workaholic. I even worked about 36 hours in a row from Thursday to Friday, which resulted in me passing out for about 12 hours in my bed on Friday night. Okay, okay… I know that this is not healthy and I am trying to control my sleep and the amount of time I work in a day!

*below my sleep tracker of the last few days… notice the day I skipped sleeping*

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3 years at Alembo

By Clayton

Today is exactly 3 years ago that I first signed in here… and it was NOT a joke!! 😀

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Time has gone by fast. 3 years ago I had 3 times less grey hairs on my head and I weight 5 kg lighter. Oh Alembo, what have you done to me? Haha

In my 3 years I sat in 2 different rooms in the building, have had 2 different functions, seems colleagues come and go, have worked with various clients, have gained a lot of new experiences, have been annoyed multiple times, have been satisfied, have one time seriously considered quitting, have loved and hated my job both at the same time, became a work-a-holic. But I think all of the above is part of every job.

I did decide to throw a minor celebration; by buying cake for the people I have known the longest here. And that only because I am not sure if a 4th anniversary will follow, but who knows. Anything can happen, right?

Maybe I should reward myself on this work anniversary with a nice 2 week vacation. 🙂 Well I did already have 5 vacations since I’ve been working here, but who’s counting anyways…. lol

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Thank you long weekend

By Clayton

Remember how on Friday I wrote about the things that have been troubling me the past week? Well good news. All over now! 🙂

All EXCEPT the internet problem. Yes, I live in a country that is run by idiots, whom have other idiots working for them. It’s simply idiotic! Let’s not go into details. Let’s just say my internet is still not working, while this should not be the case.

On Friday I thought long and hard about what I did… eventually I gave in. My sobriety and bitter reality were a bit too much. I bought me a bottle of red wine, minutes before the store was about to close – and not even the good one, but at that hour beggars couldn’t be choosers.
After I let the sweet aroma of that bottle escape into my nostrils I already felt like a heavy burden was being lifted from me. I savored the moment of sip and just let my worries slip away.

After I felt like I was a normal human being again – instead of a robot that was reaching the point of self-destruction – I decided to go locate my friends. First possible location where they could have been there was not a soul to be found. At least not a soul that I was looking to find. The second location they had indeed been, but had already left. Next was the last and obvious place for me to find them. I arrived without notifying them beforehand and yes, they were there.

We had a fun time. I decided to stick to red wine as I wasn’t ready for a major hangover the next morning, especially not after 6 weeks. I just needed a night were my thoughts and feelings were mellow. And that was exactly what it turned out to be.

On Saturday my friends and I gathered together again and simply watched lots of TV series and funny YouTube videos until our laughing muscled started to ache and our eyes gave in to exhaustion. After that it was time to make my way to my bed.

Perfect weekend. Just what I needed.

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Since it was a long weekend, I had one more day of relaxation. Since I also still have no internet I decided to be productive. I started studying for my examination this week, picked up a book which I’ve been reading on-and-off again (what is this, my love life? Lol) and also opened the novel I’ve started writing years ago, but haven’t touched since 2012 – and even then I think it was simply to edit a few grammar mistakes.

So maybe life without internet isn’t so bad?
Who am I kidding… I AM DYING OVER HERE!!!!

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The sober life SUCKS!

By Clayton

This has officially been my most stressful and frustrating week at work. Seriously! I have never dealt with so much office drama in one week. And what made things worse is that the drama was not something I had to fix, but just had to keep under control.

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In short:
2 weeks ago a client’s website had to be migrated to a new server, because the old one was… well, you know OLD and not up to date with the current requirements of the online world. Good that’s all clear… the problem: the client wanted it NOW or as SOON as possible, which was not something that is possible, since it’s up to our server provider to do this and up to our own IT-support to fix the rest. Perfect. First it was another hassle to get things done correctly and eventually the deadline was not reached by 2 entire days simply because our provider refused to perform certain actions. So it was non-stop mailing back and forth, non-stop calling to the Netherlands and to make things worse I had my client constantly calling me for an update and demanding things that were out of my hand. It all ended well and what was needed to be done was done. This whole project, the final stages of the migration were a 15 minute task, but in total cost almost 21 working hours just to get it started.

Okay… but lucky me this was all in my evaluation week! #FML o.O

My evaluation can be summed down as the following: I am a good employee, but maybe not a good leader. And the fact that the company is growing and some departments will be merged, only one person will be on top of such a merged department… and it won’t be me.

The conclusion that I am not a good leader was all based on ONE person.
IT WAS ONE TIME, COME ON!!!!!!!! This was the part that seriously frustrated me more. Yes, my team was small. At one point it was even 2 people. One stumbled down and the other excelled. Sadly (for me), the case going down was also the one that dragged me down.

I had a 2 hour talk with the boss that I was not happy with this and was not going down without a fight. After all, a captain goes down with his ship! Another meeting to talk about this is yet to be scheduled. However, when I was home I thought to myself, why am I fighting? Isn’t this perfect? If I don’t have a team to manage anymore I can come to work, put on my headphone and work in silence for 8 hours without worrying about others and just getting my own work done. The perfect solution to a very stressful situation, right?

After a long day at work, I usually get myself lost in the virtual world of endless possibilities – also simply known as “surfing the internet” – but the twisted nails of fate didn’t allow this this week, because my internet has been down since Monday!!!!!

Oh and I am not done yet, my dear readers, I have also NOT been going out nor drinking or having any spontaneous fun for 6 weeks now. Instead I’ve just staying home and trying to focus on other things, like school, which made me realize: SOBER LIFE EFFING SUCKS!!!
Never have I wanted to just sit down with a bottle of merlot in front of my laptop more than now. I don’t mean to sounds to like a raging alcoholic or whatever, I just crave a nice stress-free moment!

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Luckily this week came to a good end with a quiet Friday at work, Epica’s new single release “The Essence of Silence” and a long weekend up ahead. Oh wait… but I have to study for an examination next week: OMG, can’t I get a freaking break?

Happy weekend everyone 🙂

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